My Strange World

today is 30dec! congrats to Malaysia team for the AFF Cup last nite! so proud of them .. but, i didn't watch either of the matches here in malaysia or in indonesia .. but still i'm proud of them ..

because of the victory, PM declared 31 Dec 2010 as a public holiday! cool huh? i can't remember when was the last time, the previous or the other PMs declared public holiday on the spot like this? i barely remember .. might be when i was a little boy!

any plan for new year eve? not for me .. working 0700hrs on the first day of 2011! n there are n the is no new year plan or new year invitation .. so i'm afaid i will just spend my new year eve n new year nite at home, in the comfort of my own room! alone, most probably ..

still remember my new year celebration back in 2008 if i'm not mistaken .. at mutiara damansara, between the curve n ikea .. the street is full with human .. all sizes n in all colors .. hehe ..

so sad to leave 2010 behind .. n so nervous to welcome 2011! hope for the best coming .. hope to become stronger n wiser in 2011 ..

the 2011 is just around the corner .. like it or not, u r heading to a whole new year, new resolution n hopefully, everything will go well n better than before .. never expect this will be so soon .. it was just like yesterday, we celebrated the new year for 2010 ..

resolution? i guess mine will be the same for the past few years! losing weight n getting a better health! maybe getting more incomes for the additional resolutions .. we never know .. hehe .. hopefully everything will go smooth as planned ..

surprisingly, i jumped to do something i never ever think of .. luckily, i did it n enjoying it .. hopefully to get more of it coming .. n hopefully, it will works! haha .. it is an extra income you know .. for me living far from parents ..

for sure, the best experience ever will be traveling to europe for a week .. the 1st time experience n it was great! i am so miss geneva, gruyeres, zermatt, provonce n also the welcoming families n their hospitality .. 13 hours flight was so tiring but it is worth spending so much time to reach there .. hopefully can revisit the same places or maybe somewhere near by!

for 2011, there are a few travel plans came up .. haha .. invitations from friends and also plans i have never raised up to certain important persons .. just have to doing OTs n keep more money .. maybe, 2011 is my traveling year! we never know .. we can plan, but everything decided by the all mighty!

saying goodbye to 2010, the year i learnt a lot .. good n bad .. happy n sad .. i can say some, did a bit made my more mature .. but i'm still the cute one! haha .. maybe i have to put aside all the fun first before i can get the result .. i will always hope for the best for myself, my family n my friends!

Suara kisah kita
Yang sehalus sahutan di mata
Segala norma yang melena ku
Pada aroma syurga kita


Nan syahdu cinta menunggu
Sayunya kerna air matamu


Chorus
Nadiku bagaikan berlagu
Nantimu hentikan apa berlaku padamu
Yang ku temu
Hadirmu sambutlah damba dakapanku


Suria kasih kita
Yang berbisik gerimis serinya
Seindah frasa yang damaikan ku
Walau sezarah air mata


Biarku kucup wajahmu
Leburkan saja ia padaku


Ulang Chorus 2X

2Nov ari tu, sampai dr Geneve .. rasa mcm nak stay sana seminggu lg .. tp apakan daya, cuti dah clear .. so kena balik mesia .. klu x, lenguh lak nak mjwb HR kang .. tp puas ati lah .. coz nih 1st time travel g europe .. dpt lak main snow, walaupun baru spring! haha ..

22 Oct 2010
hari nak travel .. aku baru terhegeh2 g beli kasut coz baru tukar rest day .. patut aku plan nak g shopping last minute on selasa, coz originally on selasa rest day aku .. tpaksa dikorbankan sebab aku terlebih apply cuti .. i was adviced to get unpaid leave to cover sehari tlebih tuh, but controller kat ofis suruh aku cancel leave on friday tuh, n korbankan hari selasa .. kalu x, tercemar nama aku .. settle jugak lah sumer benda .. aku sampai rumah pun agak2 5pm gak kot? pack2 barang, mandi semua, then tunggu member kitorg .. coz dier patut g pick up laki dier dr Jakarta ..


23 Oct 2010
13 jam kemudian .. sampai lah terminal 1 airport Paris .. so kena kejar terminal 2 lak tuk ambik paris - geneve guna air france .. paling sakit ati dah sampai shuttle station, x leh nak bawak trolley masuk ke situ .. dgn beg yg byk, coz pesanan dpd kawan2 n bakal kawan2 kat geneve, kitorg tpaksa mengangkut beg2 ni 2 kali .. dah settle with all the bags, sampai2 teminal 2F, dah almost 10am .. so mmg xleh lah catch flight tuh .. so kitorg 4 org stand by flight 12 tgh ari dr paris ke geneve .. so sempat lah g luar terminal, merasa udara luar .. bila hembus nafas, putih jer .. huhu .. mcm dlm movie! dah nama nya 1st time ke europe .. time almost nak winter lg tuh .. damn sejuk! but i love it so much .. once sampai geneve, joe pick up kitorg dr airport .. kisah2 angkat beg blaku lg ..xdilupakan dr airport ke kete joe! so sempat lah get ready, coz ada lunch invitation kat rumah en amin n kak amy .. they served us nasi lemak, ayam goreng rempah, the highlight of the day, the prune cake! celebrate birthday Joe pd hari tuh .. after the late lunch, joe plan nak bawak boboy g karaoke .. tp tempat tuh dah tutup .. last2 kebetulan azril n alia br balik dr paris gak kot? so we all picked them up at the railway station nearby .. then, kitorg sumer g rumah diorg bdua .. apa lagi, boboy pun layan lah karaoke! semput jugak lah lepas bantai nasi lemak, then nyanyi .. end up, almost 1030pm or 1130pm kot? baru kitorg balik .. coz esok nyer nak g gruyeres!

another 5 days to go! wuhuhu .. barang satu aper pun lom beli lagi! acaner nih? haha .. harap2 sempat g beli pg 21 Oct 2010 n on 222 Oct 2010 itself ..

next .. semlm tetiba kwn aku sms pagi2 buta! dlm 2am plus kot? time tuh aku baru nak lelap .. n mata x dpt nak lelap .. so aku layan lah sms dier .. dier ni nak tanya pendapat aku ttg boipren dier yg dier masih sayang walaupun dah xde talian perhubungan d antara satu sama lagi .. mamat tuh pun, lom ada ganti nyer .. samer lah ngan kwn pompuan aku nih ..

aku nih nak cakap dr. love, xde lah plak .. bercinta pun lom pass lagi! ni nak jd dr. love! puhlis lah! haha .. tp takat nak bg pendapat n thru experience nengok member2 bcintan mcm belangkas tuh bleh lah kot? har har harruuuuu .. apa yg penting, aku gtau dier, kena respect each other n if possible, kena duduk sesama, bincang .. acaner nak solve at least .. other way, dier leh express yg dier miss mamat tuh, without expressing anything, anyway .. klu x, g terjah jer! hahaha .. xde lah, dier bleh tanya direct kot? x salah pun .. polis x tangkap pun ..

and of course, as a friend, i will always pray for the best for my friends .. xkan nak tengok diorg merana kot? biar lah aku merana sorg2 klu memang patut aku merana .. but, of course i want something nice n great for myself!

anyhow, aku mmg x sabar nak g travel next friday .. and apa yang paling penting, i will need to call my mak n bapak, mintak restu diorang .. mintak kebenaran n at least inform them, that i will be away for almost 2 weeks! n i don't know what i should get for them? hmmmm .. i will think of it later than .. or else i will just decide when i'm there! wuuuhuuuhuuuuu!!

ada kurang seminggu je lagi nak travel ngan boboy, kak zila n kak jah .. brg belum ader lagi .. so far baru beli beli besar .. tuk masukkan baju n brg2 nanti .. hopefully everything will be fine .. plan nak g beli some important things the day before n also the morning before depart .. fuh .. mesti letih coz the day before keje 4pm - 12am .. nak kena bgn pg then g last minute shopping n packing .. fuhh!

makin dekat nak travel, makin nerves lah plak .. haha .. 1st time nak travel jauh2 lah katakan .. rasa patut sedia list yg perlu lah nampak gaya ..
1. bateri rechargeable extra .. (takut ngah syok bgambar, bateri plak kong)
2. beg besar sikit (nak kena stand by, g travel seminggu lebih .. senang sikit bwk barang) - DONE - 141010
3. baju sejuk/ (sana nanti sejuk .. mau x beku lemak2 aku ni kang)
4. kena gtau mak n bapak (nak g jauh ni .. kena mintak ampun n apa2 yg patut .. insyaallah selamat balik)
5. kena belek magazine about travelling (cuba cekup mana2 tips yg bguna .. rasa ada 2 or 3 magazine aku yg ada travel edition .. might help!)
6. baju melayu (ada photoshoot tuk aidiladha lah plak ..)
7. shoes ..
8. a lot of baby oil or moisturizers & lip balms (kat saner nanti kulit cepat kering)
9. extra batteries (cuaca sejuk cepat makan bateri .. kena beli extra lah nampak nyer)

ni je kot yg leh aku list down .. any suggestion?

semlm g rumah kak aida fadzlina n abg fred .. kenal lagi dorg kat aku .. walaupun just jumpa setahun sekali je .. actually it was more to a thank you visit, coz diorg sanggup nak g rumah time raya ari tuh masa kat kch .. kenal diorg thru fan club akademi fantasia 2 .. 2004 kot? so end of that year, buat lah gathering raya kat hotel coronade .. jd akak aida n abg fred lah yg ambik kat airport time tuh .. n bmlm ngan diorg .. so ingat2 lupa lah rumah tu .. apa yg aku ingat, rumah tu ada taman kecik yg cantik n bdepan ngan highway .. time tuh, maner tau jalan2 area damansara n ttdi .. huhu .. even now pun bukan pass sgt pun .. haha .. tp x tau lah .. naper aku still malu2 g ngan diorg? bukan baru kenal sethn 2 .. acaner aku nak buang perangai pemalu aku yg pemalu sgt ni?

2010 dah nak melabuhkan tirai .. aku mcm dah xde hati nak buat aper yg aku buat sekarang .. nak sgt rasa nak kuar dr tempat nih .. carik pengalaman tempat lain .. biar lah mula dr bawah balik .. x jauh sgt beza pun ..

kalaulah betul perkiraan aku, aku akan berumur 28 tahun pada 26 november 2010 .. bersamaan dengan hari jumaat! walaupun dah lebih suku abad, aku still rasa banyak sangat kekurangan kat diri aku .. of course aku nak atasi semua kekurangan aku .. tapi aku tak mampu .. makin aku cuba, makin aku jauh perginya ..

dah keje kat sini, almost 3 tahun .. genap 3 tahun under the same company, which is on the coming 15 november 2010! aku belum puas .. banyak lagi aku nak kejar .. banyak lagi aku nak catch up .. aku tahu manusia tiada yang sempurna .. aku nak cuba jadi sesempurna yang boleh .. sometimes, aku terpikir jugak nak pindah balik ke kuching .. lantak lah org cakap, kuching xda apa2 .. kuching susah nak dapat promotion .. tapi aku ada family aku kat situ! aku rasa aku secure kat situ ..

memang aku xkan nafikan yg aku akan rindukan life aku kat ini .. konsert sana sini .. meloncat2 kat club ngan kawan2 .. jln2 shopping kat shopping complexes .. makan pelbagai jenis makanan .. gelak ketawa ngan kawan2 .. kawan2 kat tempat keje yg aku kenal since aku masuk .. tapi, aku xnampak apa2 hasil pun! aku xnak hidup macam ni sampai biler2! sometimes aku malu ngan adik beradik aku yang lain ..

teringin nak sambung balik belajar .. xtau sama ada aku still leh terima x? aku ingin nak sambung balik belajar .. kalau lah aku sambung belajar dulu .. mesti dah settle degree .. maybe x keje kat sini .. mesti berkawan ngan org lain .. x merasa travel here and there .. nak beli tiket flight pun kena book awal2 .. but, maybe a much better life! but, aku xkan kenal kawan2 aku kat ofis nih .. xde nak menggila2 mcm kat sini .. x akan dapat experience yang aku dpt mcm kat sini!

hidup ngan keje shift, memang macam xde life langsung .. time org keje, aku membuta .. time orang membuta lak, aku mencengkak mata carik duit .. sometimes, aku akan miss event2 occasion2 yang gempak .. aku tahu hidup aku ni membosankan .. orang cakap hidup aku boring! sedih! tapi xleh nak merungut .. ngan keje ni lah aku bayar sewa rumah .. ngan adanya keje ni gak aku beli keperluan aku sumer .. ngan titik peluh ni jugak aku gi sana sini, enjoy sana sini .. tapi aku rasa x cukup! dgn keje ni jugak aku kenal org .. hati budi org sedikit demi sedikit .. aku kenal apa itu setiakawan, brotherhood n friendship! tapi aku tlalu naif .. terlalu bodoh nak kenal orang .. aku ingat lagi, kawan aku pernah bercerita pasal org2 kat ofis .. biler ditanyer, saper yg xleh nak cayer .. dier jawab, better ko kena sendiri, kenal sendiri .. then only u will know .. aku ingat aku bleh .. tapi ternyata x boleh .. aku x leh nak kenal .. aku x tau nak baca org! aku x pandai nak tengok saper yang baik, sapa yg tak! kenapa aku bodoh sangat?

today is the 11th day of eidulfitri! spent a great time with my family on the festive season .. surprised my parents by coming back the day before eidulfitri!

hehe .. good day to all .. quite interesting day today .. almost confirm that I will not handle the next new batch .. that’s mean, either I will handle next group, which is not really my preference, or else, I will just become the normal staff as before ..

The last 2 months, I can say I’ve learnt a lot .. and I’ve shared a lot .. still, there are still a lot for me to improve .. as a normal person, I am not perfect .. I want to as perfect as possible ..

I’m going to miss this 2 months experience .. working in the morning,straight for 2 months .. but I do miss the shift patterns that I’ve absorbed for the past 2 years plus ..

Can’t wait for Ramadhan! Most probably this coming webnesday! Woohoohoo .. Let’s see wait will happen this coming month ..

Hmmm .. pejam celik, pejam celik .. dah masuk 2 bulan aku pegang tanggungjawab sbg team leader bebudak baru .. dlm masa seminggu 2 lagi, nasib aku mungkin akan berubah .. sama ada aku stay as team leader, tapi maybe lead other group, or else, aku akan turun jawab calls balik ..

As team leader, it is totally a new thing for me .. walaupun b4 this pernah lead a group of management trainees kat miri .. this is totally different environment .. products terlalu byk, even sometimes aku pulak refer kat my group members! Haha .. well, aku manusia .. nobody is perfect!

Luckily this group x byk songeh, but aku mcm x nak diorg ni depends sgt kat aku .. coz aku nih bukan lah pandai sgt pun .. pemalas memang lah .. so sometimes, aku let them to refer other more experience team leaders, biar diorg leh communicate ngan staff2 lain .. mmg lain, at first, aku kena tarik to let them, so that we can do something better to the new staff .. tp klu dah x pandai nak refer ngan org lain, x bgaul ngan org lain pun x bagus ..

Nak cakap rindu kat keje jawab call to ada gak .. the thrill n the satisfaction when we can settle certain2 things yg aku rindu .. dah keje jd team leader nih, aku paling malas biler kena jawab call bebudak baru, just bcoz caller ni nak cakap ngan people higher .. motif? Ko bukan manusia? Apa beza sgt ckp ngan budak baru? Klu korang x nak percaya ngan keje yg diorg buat, sampai biler baru diorg pandai buat keje?

Sometimes benda2 kecik pun diorg buat kecoh .. even worst, biler staf lain buat hal, g transfer kol, budak baru nih jawab, diorg lah yg kena .. then aku plak jd mangsa .. bangsat betul!

Then, next week dah puasa! Pas tuh, raya! Hahaha .. plak nak balik kuching lah before puasa, or the 1st week of puasa .. dah jd mcm kebiasaan utk aku buat cam tuh .. bazaar ramadhan kat kch yg aku rindu the most .. makanan yg pelik2n jarang kita jumpa, akan kita dpt time tuh ..

Anyway, windu kat mak, bapak, adik2 aku n especially ukie, the one n only nephew yg aku ada buat masa nih .. dah sepuloh bulan .. mesti dah besar .. haha .. update: nasib akan diketahui by end of this week!

this is the 3rd week, i become the team leader for the latest batch in my office ..
the 3rd week people see me walking around, from one table to another table, answering questions for my subordinates ..
the 3rd week, i see my executive n really talking with him ..
the 3rd week, really ..

only now, i notice that, i have to brush up more on my knowledge ..
i only notice, that i am lack of information ..
i only notice, that i have to widen my perspective ..
i only notice, i have more responsible now then before ..

ari ni Mothers' Day .. rasa sebak lak ckp ngan mak kat tepon td.. hehe .. rindu sgt .. walaupun br jumpa last week .. mak keep on saying aku selalu lambat dah wish kat dier .. even time birthday dier .. aku terasa lak .. hhhmmmm .. she told me, last time, i will always be the first to wish her .. sedih lak dgr .. mak! miss u so so much .. memang betul kot? sebenarnya, anak sulong yg lebih n paling manja kat parents compare to the youngest! huhu .. *blush*

x tau nak post pasal aper .. la ni mata sgt ngantok! kat ofis lg nih .. kejap lagi nak balik .. hmmmm .. oh ya! nak flash back apa aktiviti aku dah buat since a few months back .. aku story ikut maner yg aku ingat ek? paling aku x lupa, masa g showcase Dayang Nurfaezah n Marcell kat Hard Rock Cafe KL! it was so memorable moment! supposedly, no ticket n no invitation at all .. tp at the last minute, abg mamat kind like give out his ticket to me .. it was so sweet! aku pun excitedly bkemas .. nak g nengok Dayang n Marcell ok? met kak lis yg dah lamer x jumpa!

what else? ermmm .. oh ya .. since last year, aku agak aktif nengok movie free with Cinema Online .. tu je la kot .. stgh jam lg nak balik .. better start kemas2 ..

dah lama dah tak update blog aku nih .. tetiba mcm ringan plak nak menaip .. aku ngaku, sbg manusia, aku x sempurna .. walaupun aku ingin mjd sesempurna yg boleh .. specially buat parents aku .. sbg contoh kat adik2 aku .. buat semua yg aku kenal .. tp, apa kan daya .. selagi ada nyawa, aku akan cuba sebaik mungkin utk mjd makhluk yg bguna .. aku xnak sia2kan semua yg parents aku dah buat .. lantak lah klu ada org ckp aku sajer mengada kat sini ..
just nak meluah perasaan aku .. 1st may lepas, sorg lg family members aku pergi .. anjang amin .. arwah adalah yg kedua dpd 7 adik beradik bapak .. walaupun x berapa rapat, tp kehilangannya agak terasa .. lebih2 lg, semasa arwah masih ada, aku x pernah tgerak langsung nak g melawat .. aku kat subang, arwah stay ngan cousins aku kat seremban .. paling sedih lg, masa arwah meninggal kat seremban, aku kat kch .. kebetulan cuti .. mlm tu, seriously mcm mimpi! aunty yon, isteri arwah kol bapak, bgtau arwah dah xde .. sebab strok .. arwah meninggal selepas sedar dpd strok sekejap! masa tuh, aku tgh melantak masakan mak .. tetiba mcm hilang selera .. arwah meninggal just like arwah wa jahara .. aku takut aku x dpt nak terima klu parents aku xde .. aku x tau aku cukup kuat ke x? aku leh terima ke x? aku x berani imagine! serious! balik kpd kes mlm 1 may tuh, aku kira nak tolong bapak gtau kat uncle aunty lain, tp aku dah blinang airmata .. last2 aku dail number usu aisah, aku bg kat adik aku, suruh gtau kat usu .. aku time tu mmg blinang airmata, n bila2 masa akan nangis .. aku jenis yg cepat tsentuh ..
masa wa jahara meninggal, mlm tuh aku off fon coz nak charge .. coz time tuh fon motorola lama yg tpaksa tanggal bateri, then baru charge .. the next morning, aku dpt text dpd mak ke bapak .. dlm msj tu, gtau yg wa jahara dah xde .. aku terus tduduk n terus nangis .. aku kuatkan diri, kol mak, nak confirm .. aku rasa nak balik terus ke sarikei, coz at that time, aku still study kat kch .. bapak gtau, x yah balik, everyone understand yg aku xdpt balik .. aku terus kol anjang, kira nak rumpang balik sarikei .. tp arwah time tuh hidup lg dah gerak ke sarikei .. apa yg buat aku hiba sgt, a week before tuh, aku balik saratok .. kebetulan arwah wa pun ke saratok .. arwah wa siap belek2 album kitorg beradik .. arwah wa ambik a few pics n mintak kebenaran tuk simpan gambar2 tu .. kitorg x kisah .. cz arwah mmg bukan mcm org lain .. arwah wa yg jaga kitorg 4 beradik dr kecik .. sampai at one point, arwah datuk dah sakit .. sebab parkinson .. kitorg decide she should go n take care of datuk .. kitorg dah basar .. bleh jaga diri .. bukan tu je .. kebetulan, mak bapak baru je beli pajero .. pg arwah wa nak balik, dier cakap nak merasa naik pajero .. jd bapak bawak lah pusing2 pekan saratok .. then bapak anta g bus station cz xde org nak anta arwah je sarikei .. cz masa tu hari keje .. a week, or less than a week .. wa jahara dah xde ..

chinese new year (cny) or lunar new year is back again! would like to wish gong xi fa chai to all my chinese family members .. that will be from my mother's side .. as well to all my chinese friends .. really missed the family gathering on the chinese new year eve .. uncles n aunties giving out ang pows .. visit one house to another house, collecting ang pows .. visit late grandpa's n late grandma's family, n collect more angpows ..
this year will be the 3rd year, not celebrating cny .. so, that's mean no angpows! warrrgggghhhhh ..

huhu .. dah nak setahun dah laptop aku .. 28 feb nanti, genap la setahun .. ingat lagi, mlm nak g beli laptop nih, agak lewat petang gak la .. me, boboy, ein n afza g la kat law yatt plaza .. survey punyer survey, tpikat jugak lah kat satu kedai nih .. siap2 bayar, nak kena tunggu lg cz kena format n install program2 kat dlm lappy nih .. siap2 je, kitorg test drive .. terus je guna webcam .. tu yang ada gambar kat atas tuh .. gambar2 tuh adalah antara gambar2 first guna lappy nih .. hehe ..

huhu .. i received quite a good news for myself thru email last nite, 15 jan 2010 .. it was something unexpected .. huhu .. but i don't dare to spill the details .. just let me hold on it until i grab the actual thing! huhu ..

i did my pms (or the performance test) with one of my supervisor, kak zila .. quite disappointed with it .. but still, i have to swallow as everything is on me .. i can't blame anyone .. but thanks to kak zila for the short conversation, at a quite private place at abg adzuar's place .. what we talked about, can't stop playing in my head! because i don't think i'm fit n strong enough to handle it if it is real! oh god, please give me ur biggest strength to me!

can't wait to go back to my nephew ukie in kuching! he is now 3 months old already .. the only way for to see his progress is by looking at the videos posted by my sister, thru her facebook! such a cute boy! just like his uncle aman! haha .. i just can't wait to picit his pipi (cheek)! sure he's getting heavier n bigger! i always tell my sister not to feed him so much! do not end up like his uncle aman, uncle pejal n uncle is! all r huge n big! do not get as fat as we are! not that i am not grateful with mak n bapak who raised us n fed us well .. but, just wait n see .. seriously, i am so miss my nephew! the first n the only nephew i have in the family so far ..

i'm in the middle of completing my Gossip Girl Season 2 dvd! the late dvd in the set .. i bought it last september, n i never have the chance to finish it .. i assumed that i might need to continue it at home .. as i'm so sleepy n i am now typing her for this entry!